lesson 1.
Hello. hi.
This is my fifth time trying to manage a blog and let's hope that fifth time is the charm!
you see, my whole life I have been lying. I lied a lot. I lied to my parents, I lied to my siblings. I lied to my friends and I even lied to my boyfriend. (he knows and you can imagine how bad that went).
But that's not the worst part yet.
The worst thing is, I lied to myself.
when you start lying, you can't stop. That's the beauty of lying. And at some point, I began to wonder, 'am I real?' and 'is this the real me?'. It's funny, i think. All of this happens because i started it and now I'm like a spider trapped in the web that it created.
I was so confused for so long. There's part of me that I couldn't accept. Therefore, I lied. I lied so I could be the perfect version of me, the one that my parents hope I'd become, what my friends thought I am. But the truth is, I'm not what my parents expect me to be nor I am what my friends thought of me.
For so long, I thought if I lied and told people about the perfect version of me, sooner or later I'd become that person. I realized now that that's not how it works. To be the perfect version of me, I have to realize my mistakes and learn from it, instead of pretending that I didn't make any mistakes. I realized it now and I'm glad that it is not too late for me to change.
Let's hope for the best in life, X
This is my fifth time trying to manage a blog and let's hope that fifth time is the charm!
you see, my whole life I have been lying. I lied a lot. I lied to my parents, I lied to my siblings. I lied to my friends and I even lied to my boyfriend. (he knows and you can imagine how bad that went).
But that's not the worst part yet.
The worst thing is, I lied to myself.
when you start lying, you can't stop. That's the beauty of lying. And at some point, I began to wonder, 'am I real?' and 'is this the real me?'. It's funny, i think. All of this happens because i started it and now I'm like a spider trapped in the web that it created.
I was so confused for so long. There's part of me that I couldn't accept. Therefore, I lied. I lied so I could be the perfect version of me, the one that my parents hope I'd become, what my friends thought I am. But the truth is, I'm not what my parents expect me to be nor I am what my friends thought of me.
For so long, I thought if I lied and told people about the perfect version of me, sooner or later I'd become that person. I realized now that that's not how it works. To be the perfect version of me, I have to realize my mistakes and learn from it, instead of pretending that I didn't make any mistakes. I realized it now and I'm glad that it is not too late for me to change.
Let's hope for the best in life, X
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